Smothered

I don't want to feel these tears
They well up behind my eyes
But you've been gone for what feels like years
And I keep telling myself lies
From somewhere comes the faint scent of you
And it knocks me over
Honeysuckle, jasmine, roses in bloom
Never moved me this way
Memories overwhelm and drown me
I'm falling, sinking, buried alive
Why did you have to leave
I'm lost in the nowhere
The nothing you left behind
And there is no way home.