Smothered

I don't want to feel these tears
They well up behind my eyes
But you've been gone for what feels like years
And I keep telling myself lies
From somewhere comes the faint scent of you
And it knocks me over
Honeysuckle, jasmine, roses in bloom
Never moved me this way
Memories overwhelm and drown me
I'm falling, sinking, buried alive
Why did you have to leave
I'm lost in the nowhere
The nothing you left behind
And there is no way home.

Relapse

Under my skin
My veins are burning
Shards of glass
Ripping
With every beat of my heart
Silently screaming
For I can't draw a breath
My tears catch in my throat
Choking, strangling,
Robbing my will.
I can't live like this,
My soul is sore, torn.
Alone, so alone
Someone please take my hand.
I can't see the way,
My eyes are no use
My spirit bleeds from them.
I'm shaking, I'm shaken
Losing, lost...
Find me... again.

Dissolve

All your might
Is in vain
No matter the effort
The result the same

You're grasping at threads
Unraveling
Shattering
Life undone
Coming apart at the seams

The majestic tapestry
Haphazardly rent and torn
Fraying away
Into oblivion

Plague
Famine
Poverty
Death
The horsemen ride
Upon you tonight

No mercy no pity
You're just a number
Just a statistic

Throw a pill
Down his throat
Maybe it will let him function
Maybe not

Who really needs to heal?
Stick a band-aid on
A dying soul
And pretend that it might work.
Crush the spirit
But keep the body,
We may need the resources.

It's all undone
It's all undone
Life, my bitter pill
Stick it under my tongue.

Iron

Standing here
Is where I belong
Where I have been
Where I will always be
I'm holding on
And standing here
Through fire and through storm
Through anger and hate
Through sorrow and despair
Joy and pain ebb and flow
But still I'm standing here
I felt the fear
Survived the sorrow
Still I'm standing here
I've been knocked over
I've fallen down
I've shed my blood and tears
My heart's been broken
My body bruised
My soul beaten for years
But next to you
Is where I belong
And I'm still standing here

Broken Angel

How loudly does the song of your heart play?
Can you hear it over the raging storms
When the crushing hand of cruelty
Is upon you laid?

Does thunder of your heart beat strong
Even when sorely betrayed?
Can it trumpet its strength
When the dearest becomes your foe?

How loudly does the song of your heart sing
Through the pain
Through the grief?
Does its voice carry
Over the waves of bitterness?
Do its  notes ring true
Through confusion and disappointment?

How loudly does the song of your heart play
Though broken, scarred, and bruised?
Does it have the will, the voice
To soar above it all?

How loudly does the song of your heart play?
In joy, in pain, in sickness, in health,
In fatness, in lean times
Through everything,
Is your heart true?